Been sucking my thumb. That’s how I KNOW I’m not feeling good. I fell asleep that way. I guess it’s cause my teeth hurt, as they do when my sinuses are at their worst. Sucking my thumb makes my teeth feel better. Smh.
I’m tired of the same old shit!! Attitudes that suck! Hypocritical behaviors! Blaming the woman for everything she does wrong, and barely praising me for what I do right. That shit gets old! And I can’t help but stress myself out about it.
Some days I dream of going back a few years. Things I would have said. Things I wouldn’t have said. Close my mouth and close the door on a chapter that shouldn’t be written. Saying yes to some things and no to others. Giving time to some people and not wasting it on others. If I could have September 2007 again, oh how it would be different. Or if I could have February 6 2009 again, the goals I would accomplish and the things I wouldn’t settle for.
I can’t have those days back. I have to get by with what I have already chosen to do. I have to steer back down to the path I SHOULD have been on. Or maybe I’m on it and I’m just experiencing some hurdles…
I really gotta get on a better eating schedule. I eat dinner at lunch time and then starve again until breakfast because, “it’s too late to be eating dinner”. Yea this is BS. And all I want is tomato soup. I had an apple a few hours ago, but…. yea…. I’m starving.