I’ve been so tired lately. I find it hard to get out of bed and really get going. I was sick on and off but I wasn’t this tired. I wonder if I’m becoming depressed and don’t realize it. I think I’ve suppressed a couple of things and they are bothering more than I think. I can only think of two things: not getting promoted again recently and wedding finances. Either way I need to find some energy somewhere. Nothing gets me going. I feel happy. I feel joyful. I thought those feelings were genuine. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I need to stop letting those things worry the shit out of me. It’s clearly not good for me.